Things I won't miss

So you know that stage between dating and marriage, most people like to call it the engagement? Well I like to call it the espousement. (It is more difficult to end an espousement, and anyone who knows Danny and I and how we got started, it needs to be called that. haha) Well, this time in life is the WORST! It is like you are stuck in limbo between being single and being married. At least for me.

Danny and I already act like we have been married for a year or more in the way we are with each other. (We accredit that to our friendship before dating). We get along with tons of single people, but we just kind of "fit in" with the old married foogies. We argue like we are married, we talk about our life like we are married, we are unofficially married. (Wow, the word unofficially turns up a lot in this relationship. haha) However, we get none, and I mean NONE of the benefits of being married. We don't get to fall asleep around 9 or 10pm. We don't get to spend the entire night sleeping and yes, I do mean sleeping, next to each other. We each have our "other" lives, since we aren't in the same ward. See what I mean, S-I-N-G-L-E. Here is a list of top ten things I will not miss from being single.

1. Coming home and my bedroom being empty when it is time for bed.

2. Saying goodnight to the love of my life.

3. Sleeping in the bed by myself.

4. Waking up after already falling asleep and driving home.

5. Moving all my stuff every fourteen weeks.

6. Not having a permanent home. (My parents house will always be home, but I want my own.)

7. Having only a few minutes here and there to see the love of my life.

8. Saying goodnight to the love of my life.

9. Sleeping in the bed by myself.

10. Sleeping in the bed by myself, and saying goodnight ready to leave the love of my life till the next day.

Ahhh the single life. Si-in-r-a in 85 days and counting!

Ain't life great!?

I decided to stay in Rexburg for the Winter because 1) the seven week break was difficult enough not being with Danny (who I knew I was going to marry even then) and we weren't even dating yet. 2) Because Thanksgiving Break was difficult enough and it was only a couple of days long for me. and 3) I figure it would be easier to find a job in Rexburg where I am staying for a couple of years instead of Colorado where I would have to be hired and trained in three months before I quit, and I could take a few classes. Alas, finding a job is not going as planned and every time I fill out applications I just get frustrated and discouraged. I was only able to register for one class (once a week). Luckily it is with the love of my life and Angie, (my future sister-in-law) who I love!

I sit at home applying for jobs, going to places picking up applications and dropping them and my ever so lengthy (unfortunately not) resume off. I stalk everyone on Facebook and their dog and just stress about everything I need to get done, but feel as if I can not.

I hate the love of my life's friend. He is awful! I wish I had met him before he went off the deep end, but everyday he inevitably ends up screwing him over. What a friend. Why can't people just be honest!?